Tuesday, February 3, 2009

What People Think They Want?

People and What They Think They What!

I have been single for 19 years, and have been living a Godly life for the most part. My heart for the past 17 years has been toward the Lord and His will and calling for my life.

For all of these years I had thought that I needed a man at my side to full filled the call of God on my life. Well I am hear to tell that is not the case. Yes the Word of God states a man should not be alone, and etc. etc. The Word also says, “A man that finds a wife shall obtain favor and blessings of the Lord.”

It does not say anything anywhere in the Word that I have found that you oh daughter shall not full fill your call because you lack a mate…. Or you oh son, whatever the case maybe.

I say this to myself as well as anyone brave enough to know the truth, and let the truth set them free.

I have heard woman say, “If I only had my mate then I could…and if my mate would go to the gym and work out with me, then I would…sis lets be real here, if you are not doing it now, you won’t when your man comes alone. I say this also to the men out there. I have heard a man say what he was looking for in a woman, actually a few men I have heard say this…I might add, these men are in there 50’s. I want a woman that can still have children, I messed up my first time around and want to have a new family…That is so sad, these men say I need a woman that is build and can climb to the top of the Rockies… Go to every country God will send, poppy poo. Gents if you are not doing those things right now, what makes you think that a woman will drive you to do it?

Something rose up in me today when all this came forth; God never said your call is conditional if you have a mate… How about being truthful with ourselves, and say it like it is. I will be honest with you, I am in the hope of a companion to share life with, but not to full fill me, only God and His calling and purpose can do that. So this is what I say to any single gents that might read this…


I am walking out my life calling, and do not need a man to conform me to his, I believe a mate is to bring good to the relationship and well as the Lady, the bible says a man that find a wife finds a good thing and obtains favor and blessing of the Lord, I am a good thing. I do not say that in pride or arrogance. I have live a life that has shaped me in and through the Lord Jesus. All other info that needs to be found out can be by the one who ask for it. Bless you for reading this. Also I would want the same from a man, I do not want a man who wants kids, been there done that. If you want me to work out with you in a gym or anything else, you had already be doing it, if you would like me to join you on mission trips, again you better already be doing it. I would like someone the Lord would send to be a blessing in everyday life, no matter what comes, storm or sunshine…







copyrite @ by Jacqueline Roland 2008

Saturday, October 25, 2008

Who Do I Act Like?

I have a question?
How many of you who have ever read the bible, and got to know Jesus in a very personal way, can say He ever wavered from whom He is? Meaning Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever, His actions toward us do not change. Right?

It has come to my attention from others about the Church, and how they see the Church, now most of the people I am specking about is "the Church"; however there have been some phone calls and complaints about the Church at large, No pointing fingers at any certain body, just the Church as a whole. The complaints are, I see so and so in the church, and he/she welcome me and say they are glad to see me, and then a day of two later I will see the same person in a store, and I hear them gossip, act rude, and even cuss...

I am writing this, because I feel we are call to be who we are in Christ Jesus at all times, if indeed that is who we are, don't get me wrong we still live in a flesh suit, however if our heart is truly changed and we are endeavoring to be like Christ, then something is wrong. And I know some people just look for excuses to not come to Church, however let the chips fall where they may.
I myself have come up against this kind of behavior, there are leaders in the Church who treat a person with all this and a bag of chips, until you do not bend their way. Then they are like ice water. This should not be, I have ask for people to keep me accountable for my action, I would not want to hurt any sheep with my actions that look like the world instead of Christ like.
Yes there is a line drawn in the sand, and every one of us have to know what that line is, and to be honest the older we become in Jesus that line become more defined.

King David wrote in Psalm 139:23-24 saying:
Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxious thoughts; and see if there be any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the everlasting way. "NIV”

I think all of us need a heart check up. I know I need one daily, how about you? Even when we have had a bad day, that is no reason to take it out on our families, as well the family of God, and most certainly the lost sheep, for we are truly the only bible some people read, they may pick up a bible and read it, however we as the Church act like the world, what does say to those searching for the truth, and all they get is error. Yes we will make mis-takes, and God will picks back up. I felt to get this out, because we are living is dark days, and we must allow God's Light to shine brightly so those who are lost can fine their way.
Thank you for taking the time to read, and feel to add a comment.
Happy Reading
Jacqueline Roland
Copyright @ 2008 all rights reserved

Monday, October 20, 2008

Balance

Hi Everyone,

I wanted to share a revelation I came upon this past week. I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetics about two years ago, and I did what I think most faith-walking Christian do, I said NO, I do not have that problem, and no one in my family does, I refuse to take that report. Well I did a lot of praying, and God was gracious to me, He gave me the wisdom I needed to eat right, and exercise, I became very sanative to my body and how I felt, so I knew when my sugar was high or low, however I did not know I was destroying my body by being hard headed, and refusing to take the whole council of God, And because of this I have damaged 75% of my nerves in my feet and legs, so please take heed on what you hear and read from the Lord, and obey. In Proverbs 18 amp bible says, and I paraphrase it, if you do not do all you can to heal yourself with what God has given you, then it is like a man who commits seaside. Powerful words, the Bible also says that God gave us all things that pertain to Health and Godliness, so He expects us to do our part, and then He can do His. I saw my error and repeated, and the Lord told me to go ahead and take the meds. Until the manifestation of my healing, and I have, and now my sugar has been totally at normal range, thank you Jesus... Do not be deceived God is not mocked, what so ever a man sows is what he/she shall also reap....

Happy Reading
Copyright @ by Jacqueline Roland 2008

Monday, September 29, 2008

Where is your Security?

Where is your security? 09/27/2008

For the past months the Lord has been peeling me away on where my security lays;

Wow I thought I knew, haha. As the Lord would come and visit with me, He showed me that when certain people did show respect, or consideration, I would get my feelings hurt, and could not figure out why. Well as I sought for the Lords direction on these matters, and the root of why I felt the way I did, He began to show me.

Now it did not come all at once, I do not think my heart could have took it. The first thing He showed me was my sons, and I held them in a place that at the end cause friction, and again I did not know why the friction?

I love my sons and daughter in love and grandson so much it hurts at times. However when it comes to the Lord, Jesus had to be the one who occupied the throne of my heart. This is one of the hardest to lay down, however if I want what is best for them that is what I needed to do for all of us, so they too can find their way to Jesus.

Next I discovered that I was being very touchy with my pastor, and I am sure he didn’t know his actions were causing me pain, non-communication brings forth evil thoughts.
I knew he always had my best interest at heart, but action did not appear that way. So again back on the wheel, crush, crush goes the wheel, then the Lord again showed me my security is not in my pastor either, (which I knew in my mind, just needed a heart check up).

This past Thursday the Lord came to me and said I need to renounce self, and self-centered ways!!!!!! I went what? Me? On and on, then I got still, and I saw the thing God was saying. Life is not about me; it is about loving my Father Jesus and my neighbor as my self. SO how do you do that? One step at a time. You have to loose your life in order to gain it.

The last thing God is doing in this process is delivering from self-sufficiency. This is part of renouncing self; For pretty much all my life I have had to rely on me, I have been is survival mode for so long, that when God tries to take care of me, I feel I have to help Him out. I think I have to keep doing and doing, and now it has been showed to almost be it not a stronghold in my life. Since last January the Lord has told, “Be still and know that I am GOD”. Their have many things in my heart that wanted to run, and do and figure it all out, but God keeps saying be still.

Do you know how hard that is for someone who thinks she has had to do everything for herself? For someone who could never count on anyone to help her, just a brief background, so you will know where I am coming from in this.

“I lived in Calif. until I married at the old age of 14 years. Move to Texas at 15 with my husband in small town of 210 people after living in a million plus environment, by this time I had under gone two surgeries. We were married 20 years, and during that time, I had two wonderful lovely sons, and again under went one surgery after another, all total to present, 20 major operation, and for the most part had no help until this last two, Thank you Jesus. I have endured hardship of losing jobs and two marriage, the 2nd one because I would not renounce Jesus Christ, Lost one job and don’t even know why to this day, they just shown up after two years of faithful service and said, “Sorry we no longer require your services… In short through two marriages two kids and 20 surgeries, moving to a different state, and then God having me move to nine different places while attending Victory Bible Institute, and still going through some stuff, Lost of friends, family, lost of both parent at the age of 9 and 16. This is just a very condensed version.

I have discovered “My God shall supply all my needs.” Whatsoever it maybe, from love to food, to furniture, cloths, water, support to my emotions, spiritual, bills being paid, to a good laugh, and the one that the Lord has instilled in me is His peace, Nothing missing, nothing broken. He is the great fixer.”

I do not say all this for me, I say it to the Glory of God that is so patient with us, and He will take He good time to ensure we get it, and when we do realize He is our all in all, then
things will begin to happen.

Happy Reading
All rights reserved Ó by Jacqueline Roland 2008

Monday, September 22, 2008

Waking with God

I watch a movie of about a man’s life this past week, I viewed it twice; my calling again screamed at me though this. This was an autobiography of Neale Donald Walsch (if I have spelled it right) He told of how God came to him and woke him up to talk with him, and out of this Neal wrote three books called, "Conversation with God” I have not read the books as of yet, however the DVD on his life ministered much to my heart. He had said how God talks with us all day long in different ways, such as a book, or show or even an ad on a billboard, and Mr. Neale Donald Walsch is right.

The question is are we, or I should say am I listening. Are you listening to that small still voice that sounds like you? God uses our own spirit with in us to get a message, and if that does not work, He will use something else, however He is always talking to us, and He love it, and He loves it when we get.

Think a minute how you feel inside when all of a sudden you hear the Holy Spirit, and you turn to see who was talking to you! WOW chills go up your spine, hehe it is almost like the Lord running His fingers up and down your spine to tickle you. I want to just share this a bit, because God wants to wake us up, He woke me up at 4 am this morning, my first thought was good morning, and that we must have an appointment together, Oh Thank You Jesus, then He spoke to my heart to remind me of a blessing He said I was going to get, that He was more than enough, now why do you think God felt like He needed to wake me up at four in the morning to tell me this? I believe one reason is He can, but I lead toward the fact that He wanted top strongly encourage me that it was still coming, and by getting me up so early, when I had rather be asleep in dream land, He says, Good Morning Daughter, it time to get up....Is God waking you up, and do you hear Him through out your day, be still in your heart and listen to what He has to say.

Happy Reading
Jacqueline Roland

Thursday, September 11, 2008

What is God up to

I think God is up to all good, He is asking us to press into Him, and when I think about that, I see myself snuggling up against Him and being wrapped up in Him, all of His nature. His love, and kindness, His goodness, his trust, and blessedness, can you just see yourself, Papa God loves us all so much, He wants to take us and bounce us on His lap, and He wants to sing over us with love songs. As we allow Papa God to love us right into Heaven, then all of hellish things will be loose from us, never to be seen again. So let Him love you as you fall more in love with Him and all that He is.

Happy Reading
Jacqueline Roland

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Angles

The bible tells us in Hebrews 13:2
Be not forgetful to entertain strangers: for thereby some have entertained angels unawares.

Have you ever had an encounter with your angel? I have two times now. The first time was in 1991 when I had a quad-triple back and neck surgery, there was a large black woman who stayed at by bedside all through the night; she kept turning me every few hours, she sung over me all night, and padded my back so I could cough.

I had already had a time of leaving my physical body during surgery, I had watch the doctor flip me over like a rag doll, and when I ask the doctors why they flipped me so, they were amazed I knew that.

Well after I was able to get up; I had asked about this nurse because I wanted to thank her, and the staff at the hospital said there was no such person. Somehow I knew it had to be my angel, who God sent to spare me from death, I was not ready to meet the Lord at that time.

Again Aug. 2008 was on a mission for the Lord and stop in Tulsa for a refreshing of the Lord, and I decided to go to the alter at the end of Sunday night service, and I felt the of a hand on me, for that is how it is done at this church, and I look over my shoulder at a young lady, I though ok, then on my other shoulder I felt the present of the Lord, and I looked, and it was her again, the same black lady who was my nurse that night in 1991.

This time as I turned around and the other lady was gone, and only my Angel was standing there, she spoke Jere. 29:11 into my heart, and much, much more, for the work that was ahead of me was dangerous to the soul and God was filling me up and equipping me for the war ahead.

As I left the alter that night I turn around to look at her again and she was gone.

God has ministering angels about for us, so next time when a stranger comes in your path and build you up, and you know only God could have sent them, them treat them kindly, and with honor.

Happy Reading
Copyright By Jacqueline Roland 2008